It's been over now for 15 minutes and though I'm not crying that much anymore, tears are still there and iblant spilling. No actually I AM still crying. I didn't have time to say anything at all. Which is not the reason for why I am crying... It was all going far TOO fast. They were handed things to sign all the time, and only ONE thing was allowed. The security was taking all the presents from you, bringing them 'backstage', and asked you what you wanted to have signed. I gave him my Stacked Rubbish, and he took out the booklet, putting it on the table for Uruha to sign. The table had a cloth draped over it by the way, which was reaching down to the ground. No chance to accidently fall and catch a glimpse of 麗Uruha's thighs.
~ H A N D S ~
麗 Uruha smiled at me the second I got to him... his eyes laugh so much. So much... They're beautiful... I reached out my hand to him, smiling, he grabbed it... His hands are cool. He's so goddddamn gorgeous in real life it's not even... it's not... I don't know. Not even comparable to what he looks on a screen? I somewhat still remember his touch, or seem to remember it the most. I can't even describe how wonderful his hand felt. It's not that it was like... sending hot and cold shivers down my spine, no~ It was a normal hand. Yet. Not really. Can't call it normal. And... Uruha... in real... he so doesn't look like a girl at all. Unnngghhh~ no... When we released each others hands, he said 'Sankyuu'... his lips forming those words. ♥ 嗚呼
戒 Kai didn't look up (there already was another thing for him to sign), he looked very concentrated, on the poster (I think it was a poster), but I stretched out my hand... actually very cheekily in a quite demanding manner... 'Hey look I'm still here' xD No really... No time to think. He looked up the second he noticed it, or looked at it for a splitsecond confused before he looked up at me and smiled his gorgeous Kaismile and took my hand. Firmer than Uruha? His eyes are so dark... Kai's are. I smiled so widely... I think he felt something, because something in his eyes changed... from confusion to that boundless Kaibeam to something like recognition and appreciation. We said/whispered どうも and on I went. Actually, it was too loud to be able to say anything and actually be understood, I had the impression...
Hm, 流鬼 Ruki, he didn't look up at first either. I just saw his hat, but somehow my (not as boldly) outstretched hand again, maybe, made him look up. For a moment there I wasn't sure if the hand
shakegrab was first, or me slipping in the leaflet for Deana... But it was the hand. His hands are... really warm, and so soft. They felt small, too. So soft...
None of theirs was rough.
When I 'skipped' Ruki the leaflet for Deana, he looked up a little surprised ~ his gaze had already been turned towards the poster that had already been signed by the other two. But his hands stopped as he noticed it, and he looked up, smiling amuzed eyes (blue contacts...), a tiny smile across his lips, one corner of his mouth turned upwards, as he searched my eyes for an answer ~ his hand with the pen was hovering over the paper, miming the signing, saying "Ru...ki? *mimemime* Ruki? *more miming and hovering over the leaflet*" and I nodded and hehe he signed. *smile* I had the impression he liked it when people are being cheeky XD I actually could hear the security guy saying "Only ONE! Only one!" but that was like SO unimportant to me that moment.
Ruki passed it over to れいた Reita, my own thing had already been passed on, so Reita signed the leaflet too, and was actually already done when I got there, and waiting for Ruki to be finished with the poster. The leaflet didn't get carried over to Aoi, so I grabbed it, and skipped over to Reita... who was looking at me, grinning his little cheeky grin, his dark falcon eyes... His eyes already have this cheeky expression... He was sitting in a very very macho position I must say. All broad, haha, moving around a bit... He's a love xD Everything he did he was doing in a rather cool way haha... My outstreching already was an impulse, but I did it softly, he instantly came towards mine with his, in one big, hauling movement... yeah actually haha... his hand pluss his arm was coming aaaall the way from the right, taking my hand... the handshake with him was what came closest to a real shake. It was a firm grip, though not as firm as Kai's, I think, and as Reita looked at me and shook my hand he said "Cool!"
He's SUCH a love!
Then... 葵 Aoi was already done with mine, waiting for the next one... I still had a quest. I slipped him my golden Heresy-member's card's bag, shoved it towards him. The security guy already had said "Gehst du bitte weiter??" = "Will you go on now, 'please'??" several times... me so not interested. XD He looked up at me, big eyes, smiling his wide Aoismile. *FAINT*[no I actually didn't faint XD Never have in my life]... his eyebrows bopping up as he said something... probably "For me?" as he carefully shoved it with two of his fingers [every single one of his movements is so damn elegant...] to the edge of the table, smiling so sweetly, then eying the next thing to be signed. He looked so lovably thankful about the Heresy bag XXD [He should join his own fanclub, really haha]... While the security guy 'poking' me to go on, I waved with my finger (shit I should have used my left hand with Gazette on them XD) miming the act of signing, twice... Inbetween he looked startled, a little, at me, my EYES, and then directed his concentration onto the little bag, turning it over with his beautiful hands, turning it over face-up again, about to set the pen down, then frowning, because there was too little space on it, obviously, and then looked at me questioningly, concerned almost, furrowing his brows, turning it over AGAIN, miming signing, asking me with his eyes (did his mouth move?... ... Yes, in fact. A little purse. *arghs*) if that would be okay [his lips might have formed a 大丈夫]. I nodded ardent and took it gratefully, a little bow, a 「どうも！」and I gave him my hand... aaahh ... cool hands... More actual touch than Reita (there was much air between our hands, me thought). With Kai and Uru there was a lot of contact, too... Kai's... firm... hmmm~
I already started to forget the details!!!
Aoi's smile... believe it or not but... his lips... I only recoginzed them marginally. His eyes... so brown, big, loving and sweet~ (eeek haha... tears are rising again... We're outside now. Weakness and problems caused by low bloodpressure. ) ~ First after the hand... so cool and strong, though not TOO firm, cool yes, but not as cool as Uruha's me thinks.
First then I followed the Security Guard's order (which I hadn't been listening to either way) and went down the stairs, looking back, seeing Reita and Aoi before the sight was obstructed by other girls' backs... me, walking away... walking around a little while before I found the others. So many were just... crying. The moment I got down from the stage, I wasn't feeling anywhere near needing or wanting to cry. I only felt GREAT. But then when I saw the others starting to cry, embracing each other, crying more, just standing there for minutes... It all overwhelmed me. Came over me as this huge wave of emotions. I started crying myself ... And actually I am glad about it. I'm glad that I was able to release all those emotions. Tears act like a catalysator... We weren't sad. ... At least I wasn't. I was so overly glad I didn't know what else or better to do than to cry.
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