The thing is... when it had been our turn... it were already about 50minutes... 50 minutes had already gone. Fifty minutes of sixty. ... Gazette had already arrived there... at about 18.25. And they left... at about 19.33. And we had been there from around noon already... Imagine. Only those that had been there from morning until noon had had a chance at all. And we... got so lucky. Really... Maybe four or five minutes after we were done, Gazette got up and left... [... Ruki's sauntering... hee~] So many people still there, without nothing. But... it's PSCs rules. Not Gazette's. One hour is one hour, ne. ... It's so little though... The organiser person had told us in the beginning to please not... get hysterical or faint... haha! Well because obviously... 98% were female. *cough* Why... ever. XXD
~ H A I R ~
If I remember correctly, ルキ and れいた were talking/whispering quite a lot with each other. While still waiting in the long long queue (longer behind us though... much longer.) I once saw Uruha from Aoi's end looking over at れいた, laughing behind the backs of 戒 and 流鬼Ruki. His laugh!
ARGH! Why did they have to have such mesmerizing eyes... Now I'ld love to remember their lips. Though of course, in the overall picture, yes, I saw them... ... Aoi's smile. I was dazzled all along... and it was only 20 to 30 seconds all in all...
Kai's hair is so black... Actually I was fascinated by their hair. Uruha's was ALL OVER! It's like... everywhere! And it really really stands up like that... It just really seemed so... unreal. The hair, I mean. It's difficult to explain. They just really seem to have come from a different planet, sort of XD It makes them look bigger, taller than they are. It's like its own institution. The institution The Hair. Ze Hea. It was different to actually see it with your own eyes than seeing it on a screen. You could see how it had been worked with. And there was somthing else about it... I don't know... But really, it doesn't look like hair. It's one mass of... an institution XXD
I did NOT have to sleep at the station XD Tay had me over. She's one of the girls I met at the event. ^___^ My saviour, thank you so much. o(^▽^)o
~ G R A T I T U D E ~
I'm waiting for the train back to the Airport. ... What I had written a little while ago on my blog... "And even if I'm only gonna see them, it would be worth it"
... ... SEE THEM, my ass!... I got so close, how many people are enabled to be that close... I even touched them. All of them for G's sake! I was looking into their eyes, they were looking back, there so was a contact... (I'm crying) Keep the faith, ne... I'm so grateful. I can't even express my gratitude. I mean, I can, but... Even "I am extraordinary thankful" wouldn't quite hit the mark.
The train is coming... I'm still, not crying, but very close to. Furrowed brow, sniffing, heavy breathing. I am so thankful, and I am so glad that I can and could be so emotional about it. I somewhat know how they are in person. A bit, ne. ... I can remember Uruha's shiny outfit, the cross on Reita's back, Aoi's... everything.
They're not something you see on TV, or on any screen. They're real. どうかこの手が解けぬよ〜
Ruki's eyes seemed to be a tad red XD Either the good man is overdoing the lenses, or he had a bad night XXD And 葵Aoi ... when I was standing in the queue, behind/next to him, a new song was coming up... Maybe Filth, maye Circle... he instantly got into the song, tapping with his foot [the boots! O__O So looong!], grinning and moving to the rhythm... *eeeks* He seems to like that song quite a bit
*cheers to dancing Aoi* /(^O^)/He surely is glad and proud to be in Gazette ^_^
Twist it... shake it shake it shake it baby...
Don't know why, it just came to my mind XXXXD... Come ON and let me see you shake your little tailfeather... TWIST IT! eheh... *giggle*
You could actually see that in everyone of them: They ARE glad. And
a little bit proud of what they achieved. Proud of their fans, probably.
On the plane back... Just thinking of several things again... Thinking of Aoi... They had a lot of make-up in their faces, hehe... They wouldn't even have needed as much. I think I saw a sort of glitter too... in faces/hair. I think, Ruki had reddish lips. Aoi's were normal, but... peachy. *どきどき* Reita's had a very light colour, skin coloured. Uruha's were darker. Just a tad. .... Heh, so I noticed their lips after all. Well... Kai's grin. First, his surprise, probably because of the hand suddenly appearing xD, but instantly taking it with his strong hand [...], looking up, his face one single beam. I saw that dimple, his shiny teeth hee~ He IS really pretty. I loved his hair. I think they cut it a little... it was shorter in the back anyway. And though his hairstyle looked the most natural, it still seemed too unreal. All of their hair was. Well, maybe not Aoi's. It looked quite 'real' xD
~ M O R E B I T S A N D P I E C E S ~
Ahh... with his 'new eyebrows' he looks more innocent. Like a puppy. Hah. My ass XD... I love him...
And ルキRuki... there was something about him. He's not chubby, not cute either... maybe you could say that he just looks very comfortable... so cuddly. And his hands so warm and small... the least firm handgrip. I really could feel his warmheartedness under that tough skin. The way he has that huge cap on his head made him always lift his head a little awkwardly unnatural to actually SEE. Blue contacts... Beautiful Ruki. But he looks like MORE in real. It's hard to explain... it seems as if there was more to him, more about him. He appears... less little. Stronger. MORE. ...
Aoi's arms really are thin... Uruha's body looked so beautiful in those clothes... I kept staring at his beautiful hands when we still were in the queue and able to see him. Mole on his hand... *staresh*... I actually... held it? *twitches* And his profile... so Japanese, ne xD Aoi's lips actually really jump at you... when you see his profile. ... ... Rapes me rapes me rapes me.
Sheesh, I really need to EAT ... Actually I could do that while still reading... Doredake sakebi... I mean, writing. Yume dato Mmm so hungry. Got up at 4.25. I made it just like ~ ~ ~ to the plane. More delays and I mightn't have made it. I would have had 15 minutes... not more. Hmmm... I'm sitting on the far right, at a window, have the whole row for myself. The sun is just rising... shining through the windows on the left side. We're heading South. So hungry... Lovely, blinding sun. They got so many presents! So many!! They had to be given to the staff though. No giving in person. [unless it's a Heresy member's card bag hahahaha]
流鬼〜ℜuki... something about that man. His loving eyes. Sheesh...
Reita's little smile, his cheeky, smirking falcon eyes, or cat eyes, rimmed black as usual, his hauling handclap. And the 'cool' Haha... he's love. I like him ^_^ Actually, I was quite surprised. Never had a thing for him. Not at all. Still don't, but to be honest... he looks quite handsome in nature. ... He appears to be the one most fragile though. HE is the one who seems small. Aoi, Uruha... Aoi appears to be so TALL! He's supposed to be of my heighth, but... I don't know, ne. I mean, the piled-up hair makes them look taller for sure, yet, it appeared as if his eyes would have been higher than my eyelevel. ... his concerned furrowing of the brows and the pursing of the lips... rather 'schnuten'... pussing? [The word doesn't really exist in English] of his lips when asking if it was ok to sign the back. Hey love, I didn't expect you to do the FRONT. (＝⌒▽⌒＝) His grin... awww beautiful 葵. The way his eyes look when he's grinning... you beautiful man.
But 麗... He looks so amazing. He is, in fact, stunning. His eyes... the shape. The cheekbones. The way his facial features change when he's laughing, or smiling. Love his haircolour. Light honey... It's SO MUCH HAIR though! They all have so much! Oh, not Kaisama... XD His smile... it's not a wide smile, not if you compare it to Aoi's or Kai's. But the corners of his mouth... Sheesh, Uruha's face. Ummm... the profile. I mean... both Aoi's and his profile are very distinctive, but I don't think you ever really notice Uruhasan's nose in shoots/PVs/... It's very Japanese. *grins* The... curve.
SHEESH! Aoi's lips... from the side... the profile. They really are jumping at you. Attacking you. He wore that black earpiercing I love so much, by the way. (*^^o)
LATE and at HOME
When I was lying in Tay's bed, waiting for her to get back from the bathroom, relaxing, thinking... [antagonism at this moment]... Again I was repeating pieces and bits of what had been happening. And I realised something. Everyone of them. Each and every pair of eyes had conveyed... love. When lying there I remember the fact that they see their fans as their 6th band member. What Uruha had said in an interview, that the fans confront him with all those deep, sincere feelings, and he just doesn't know how to respond to them but by playing his music. Ne. And they really were so glad about all those fans. I mean... you can see it when people love you... you can see so much in eyes. And I remembered that little detail when Kai was looking at me. How the confusion [about the sudden appearance of a hand XD] turned into an amiability when he was smiling, this amiability turning into something else when his eyes had found mine and had rested there for a moment. Whatever it had changed into reflected in his eyes. Gratefulness, love, deep feelings... Just at seeing my own true, conveyed feelings. [ehh... my eyes must have been sparkling miles with all those endorphines ^^] This realisation of actual love flowing back to me... to everyone who had made contact, I am sure... it made me cry again... It's just so much! So wonderfully much.
Oh sheesh... I just realised, later... that... what 流鬼 said to me... was for me ... Everything they did when I was there was for me. Just as everything they did for the others was for them. 流鬼 USED HIS VOICE on me. And he used it privately, not adressed at a hall of fans but at me. Surely, he's using it all the time to all the people he's talking to, haha, but still... it was his voice. Wait... it was... soft... rolling... smooth... silky... a hint of butter... but without the butter's fat... Rolling, yes. Deep, yet light, comfortable, enticing, lulling. Uh oh... Indeed.
And now that I have looked through the pictures I have taken [70% are either security/stuff obstructed, shaky or ... focused on somebody's hair instead of the guys xD] and I have seen on lj... I noticed that I hadn't even noticed that 葵 wasn't wearing his... lovely... lippiercing... ... well. Guess he's so blinding...
"Love, didn't you notice somthing... new about me?"
"Ermmm... ehhhh... *sweat* The... the... hair?"
And honestly... it is strange. Right now, as I am typing, I suddenly really remember the way Uruha's hands had felt. So gentle and smooth and cool... So lovely soft ~ not too soft, just... perfect. His beautiful hands... ... aarrrghhh
But honestly, seeing them on the pictures is so strange. Because even there they look so different than they seemed to look in real. It's a matter of perspective and 3D I guess... or 4D, 5D.
It actually felt strange even looking through the so well known pictures on my computer. I sat there staring, shaking my head in wonder... I actually... touched THAT hand? I actually did? ... I actually know what it feels like? I ... do?... ...
My mom was all eager to hear about it all actually XD She was like "And what about Kai? What about Kai??" hahaha... And when I was telling her about Uruha "Ahhhhhwwww... Nnnggg... oohhh..." AHHAHA! *loves*
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