Note: Maybe I should give warning again, that I wrote all that just after I've woken up the day after the concert. It's incoherent thoughts and drabbles. Oh ルキ, ルキ... his motions, movements, the rapping... I was able to move so freely, freed after Cockroach
[from the time my cam had been taken away until about Cockroach I wasn't feeling that well. Couldn't really let them in. Thinking too much about what I might have and surely have lost. And people I wanted to share with. It were good pics. And perfect little films. Ah well. Seeing that I usually don't watch selfmade concertfilms THAT often afterwards, it's ok, ne... I got a fright though, when something just snatched after it, leading to the cam dropping down. I wasn't quick enough when trying to get it from the ground. Just stood there paralized. Ah well. (^^)]
... freed, 'rapping' and headbanging, and screaming ... to frenzy. ❤ Ahh... ルキ... so amazing.
「Angel who concealed wound. yeah!」
「ガンゲスに紅い薔薇」Ganges ni akai Bara ~ he... ~ ~ ~ ~ had a red rose in his hand, and plucked the petals, one ... after the other, letting them tumble down to the ground... plucking them slowly, regrettingly, plucking them fast, almost angrily, one at a time, then a bunch of them, until he tossed it away into the crowd. He pointed and gesticulated quite a lot. Ganges was amazing. The guitar solo. Supreme. I really looked forward to seeing that song live. It sounds so terrible difficult. And it is terribly difficult XD. And Uruha did it almost blindfold.
麗 had his most beautifullest blue guitar in Agony... I almost screamed when I saw it. Wait... I actually did. I did scream and pant and gasp and poke and annoy my good friend ちび over and over again "Look look! Just LOOK!!! It's the... the beeooootiful blooooo one!!" Hmmm yes I do love it XD Wait... actually... it looked like Aoi's Reila-guitar. Huh? Ummm... Well that's just fine because that's the first guitar I ever fell in love with. *shifty eyes*
「Devil who licks the wound. yeah!」
And れいたs pink bassstrings... HA! CLASS! So so great. FAB. Ahhh... 葵 and れいた were wearing the tour-shirts with pink writing, 麗 had the limegreen. I didn't see Ruki's ~ he wore a suit-thing over the shirt during the encore. [I had bought the one with pink, a ♥bag♥ and that kerchief (✮.✮)]
Both Kai and Reita had that black kerchief around their lower part of their faces when they came out to play Ride with the Rockers. The way れいた strolled over the stage then and tossed it away in one swish of his hand oozed plain coolness. (^v^) Of COURSE, ne hehe.
Lalalala... I haven't mentioned Sugar Pain yet. ... *gulp* *cough*
Ummmm yeah. In the beginning, heavy, low, headbanging. Uhh... great. (fucking awesome actually) I don't know why, but I've never thought of SugarPain as one of the heavy headbang songs XD Maybe... because I've always been rather startled and distracted by the... voices and before that puzzlement fell from me, the headbang part was over hehe. Umm anyway, I think that ルキ had said something in the beginning. Mmmhhh then the headbanging and heavy rocking... and then, his fingers moved to his lips... to his mouth... rubbing his lips, pushing them into his mouth... nnngggh, really sticking them into his mouth, then licking them so ferociously... His, his... his eyes... so... wild, untamed and utterly savage. His eyes. >______<" *arghs* ... well, his fingers and lips and tongue all in one place, and then there was the 「Prohibited Education」and he shoved his fingers down to his leather-packed crotch and he
groped... no, I THOUGHT he would just grope it, which would have been... ummm... nice enough but NO. *sweats* Nope, he... rubbed it. Roundroundroundroundroundupanddownandaround fast FAST FAST and he fucking DIDN'T STOP!!!! People were jumping and screaming and headbanging, totally losing it, but I just... stared. Couldn't do anything else but... stare. Oh fuck. And that... turned me on. Greatly. Uhuh. I want to kiss Uruha. _ _ _ Fuck, right, Sugar Pain blasted my head. Oh wow. They ALL were performing it quite sexily... Uruha anyway. When I didn't stare at Ruki, I stared at him. Dang.
「Night of pussy」
In 体温 Taion he didn't scratch the ground, by the way, but he kneeled in front of the pedestal, his micro laying in front of him. He didn't even touch it... he just sang and his voice got carried over the wood to the micro... it sounded different. I actually hated it when fans (...) screamed at moments of either stillness (The beginning of Taion for example) or moments of beauty (his scream in the end of Taion, Calm Envy...). Luckily, Ruki sang ... no, screamed that line more than one time, so we were actually able to hear it after all the sshhhh had made everyone stay quite. Sheesh. *annoyed* ... He was kneeling then, on the pedestal, methinks, his face one of utter despair and pain, the palms of his hands turned upwards, the fingers cramped... Hearing his voice... without a microphone, his pure, raw, pained, untreated voice. Carrying through the air... into ... our souls. It was rather major. m(_ _)m
Oh wow, ルキs way of acting out on stage... I just had to mention it again. The FEELING after the concert, after it all... Well it wasn't nearly as it had been after Diru. I had been exhilerated, blasted, blown into pieces, scrambled, I'd gotten lucky, deflowered (XD Talking about Jrock concerts), Kyo's hypnoticy... the IMPACT Diru has. It's mindblasting. With Gazette, my beloved favourite 一番好きなバンド, it was different. Well I friggin loved it. Suddenly, all felt so close. It all WAS so close. The possibility to go to a live, see them. Rock with them. Feel with them. Let it all out. Just... W o W.
「toiki ni mazaru ore wa kizen ka ai ka?」
Mmm... I need to get up now maybe XD It's 12:51
[EDIT: The day after, when ちび had left, and mom and me went home from the airport in her car, listening to Stacked Rubbish, I had a fucking emotional flash-back. Chizuru, People Error, Calm Envy, Ganges, Gentle Lie... It all rushed back to me, and suddenly, it didn't just feel 'great!', as I had told 由香里 when she had asked me right after it how it had been. It was... everything I'd ever wanted. With the distance, the depressing feelings I had had [cam] just weren't there anymore. I sat in the car, bless it was night, so my face couldn't be seen... I ... bawled. I sat there and shook and tears overspilled and I hardly ever breathed, trying to do it in silence... I didn't cry during the concert, though I came close, and not after wards (I almost did before it), but then, in the car... everything... You know the way we can turn up the sound in the car. Mom didn't mind. It felt almost as loud as at the concert. The way the 'room' is concealed probably has to do with it. Oh sure it sounds different live, but the feeling, it was there inside of me, still, and it brought it back. Tears, snot, terrible, really, haha... Hm... *heavysigh*
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