Sounds a little dramatic, no.
The truth is
There was nothing ever that [that didn't involve them personally and] was able to pull out as much ~ something ~ out of me like this.
I still haven't watched it again. I know I will, when I see Dani.
Yet. It's a long time ago that I've felt like today, when waking up.
Can't put my finger on it.
It's a good feeling.
It might be strange, but all that pulling and tearing and wrenching... the recoiling... it was a good thing.
I feel... eased. Fulfilled. Anything. It's rather... 美しい.
I got these little electric shocks today morning. I've never had them ever in this apartment. But there I go and touch things, and three times after another, I get these shocks. [I don't think it's the proper word, but you might know what I'm talking about]
Quite loaded, hmm? Energetic.
I feel the way I haven't felt since a while.