Oh my fucking... oh my... ohhhhh myyyy................. *stares with watering eyes*
Holy fucking mary mother of Jesus whom I don't believe in because it's not my religion but it's the first somewhat stronger expression that comes to my mind when OMYFUCKINGGODDDSSSSSS something like this fucking happens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Genwaku no umi, shizun da hotaru ... Hitei wa yokkyuu jou uso ka?
I amn't hyperventilating anymore BUT... I almost was... when my mom came back home with... an envelope in her hands, telling me about her day at work... I thought it was post for her. I didn't expect anything anyway [yet], but THEN, again, she said "Squeal for me" [What a mother-fucking domina hahaha! (I'm saying this in an affectionate way... I love me mom XXD]
And I ... didn't want to ... I didn't really believe it. Not at all.
When did I post that request about Heresy help? When did I post the letter to Heresy just on an impulse, not really knowing if it would work out the way I did it? It was last week wasn't it?
Or well... I might have lost track of time, again... No now I remember. It was the Sunday before last week. So... only NiNe days ago... They told me at the post office, my letter would take about a week.
And what do I receive today!?!?!?!?!?
(Sorry I'm not a fan of a lot of ex and qu marks in a row, but... I just can't help it right now I'm too much in a state of *breath* FRENZY!)
Fuck yeah I actually held my breath. I'm actually not really breathing. (///.///)
Please release me before breaking...
Yesyesyes it was an answer... from... PSCompany... a a a a... not TOO small envelope... ~ ~ ~ ・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･
Phew, now I think I got most of my emotions out XD
How long... In humiliation...The countless fatal scar was born.
My mom didn't give me the envelope at first... she was all like "Ahh, come into the kitchen with me, tell me of your first day at college..." (what a conversational tone aaah so cruel, while my eyes were only on the envelope) "Ne, tell me, how was it?" [eeeh okay she didn't say 'ne' xD] "Tell me ALL about it!"
I couldn't do anything but tell her... verrrry quickly haha. And then I tortured myself by trying to open it as slouuwwwly as possible, with the most impossible intstruments ever XD Until my mom lost the nerve and handed me a knife. To end my life.
XD No no, to open the envelope.
omgosh I'm just so so so ... happy. I didn't expect this at all. Oh, ha, I so WANTED to have it all happening, but I didn't expect it to happen so fucking soon. Excuse my language. I always start to curse when I ... like things.... hehe... [*insert dirty thoughts*]
Phew. I unwrapped it all really slowly though XD Taking one thing out of it after the other... one after the other... first the... the... exclusive GAZETTE FANCLUB MAGAZINE! Excuse me but: ARRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH!
Ugly acting and song... odori ga heta na Handsome... Your copulation is dirtier than money
Haha... of course I knew that I'd get it if I'd ever become member, but... I forgot all about it and when I opened the envelope, my mind went ... blank. I havn't yet taken a closer look at it, into it rather, because I instantly sat down wanting to write about it. That's why it has so many arghs and nnghs in it, this post that is haha... .... Well okay I lied, in the meantime I *did* take looks and ... I could only squeal. It's... so pretty... @__@ and... there are interviews in there and so so much...
Aoi's handwriting is so cute... (●´ω｀●) Ruki's is absolutely terrible... mehehehe... and Kai's is the most organized one. HA! XD [Oh nosies, she's taking the magz in her hands again uhhhohhh...] Okay okay, I put it down. It's just... so ... lovely.
So that was the first thing XD
Ashita wa doko he yukou kimi ga nozomu nara... Doko he demo yuku yo
Then I took out all the PSC flyers that were in there... And a postcard with which I could book a ticket for a VIP special concert. >__< If I was in Japan, that is... hehe... and THEN... finally... the... Club Card with the password and the tacky beautiful pretty golden cardcase... I always wondered why they said on the homepage that one of the benefits of being a Heresy [I love the name...] member is that you get the club card AND a case... Now I get it. It's... not a case it's... a golden... piece of Ruki's fucking GOLD PANTS!!!
Awwww... I'm so glad, ne? Now I should be able to access their blogs... *wheeee~~* Lovelovelove... And so much more... And I think I tortured myself enough again, I should post this, then... go through the rest of my emails... then... fill up my water bottle... put the camera back into my room... use the bathroom... go and eat dinner... talk to my mom... watch a little bit of TV... and then try and access their Heresy site mwahahahaha!
I'm evil XXD
Absorb fear and die. Know all the pain given to it. Absorb fear and die. Die staring at yourself.
Ne... Of course I try hard not to do all those things. *eyes waterbottle* See, it's still ... well... there's still a little left. *takes big gulp* Aahhng damn now I really do have to go and fill it up. But the camera can wait. ^-^ ... ... Ummm... but... I don't like the view of it...
Kitto onaji koto wo kurikaeshita anata wo ushinatte shimau no ga kowakatta kara... I will walk together...
And of course, I'll post the picture of all of it together whee~~
Iroiro na kao wo mite kite kara sugu ni wakatta yo sameteru wake ja nain dakedo otagai ni mi ushinatte ikiteku yori "ganbatte"tte betsu no michi wo aruku hou ga...
The Gazette bulletin/magazine, The Envelope XD, PSC flyer, postcard, clubcard with password and so on, and golden case... I feel like taking a picture of the cardcase only... it's just ... class hehehe. Hm, actually I will. You can't really see it there at all XXD
And here are the GoldPants. Ummm... yeah XXD Rn't zey pweaaddy? Umm... what did I just.. .say? ... Ohmegods I need to slap myself for this... ehehe...
Sayonara mata ne genki de ite ne zutto zutto wasurenai kara sayonara kitto mata aeru yo ne? ... Yakusoku da yo! yubikiri genman