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[poem] Sweet Deprevation 
12th-Oct-2007 12:49 am
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Notes: Hmmm... the muses kissed me today in the morning. I have never written a poem before while still lying in my bed, just having woken up. Must have been some dreams, huh~

Sweet Deprevation

I don’t want to extinguish those wet flames of pain~
Through those deviously played games so stained
I feel impishly free and cured, and so I remain
Crying bitter tears of sweet agony, mewling your name.

Give me pain, dirty me, melt my molted skin,
Violate me, balance it, on that ridge so feather-thin.
Though I want to be more than a toy with which you please yourself
I am content with what I am given before you put me back on icy shelf.

Desire keeps me burning for your skin to touch mine,
To taste your sweat and sweet lips, intoxicating like wine.
Only an instant of mirth before you push me back into dirt,
Dolefully depraved, heathenly healed by you who grazes and hurts.

Yes, I answer, my head lowered in shame, I want to be yours forever,
Please bind me to you, be it with a gold ring or scarring black leather.
Just, whatever you do, how much pain you ever will give,
Just never desert me, stay true, please, for as long as I live.

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11th-Oct-2007 11:16 pm (UTC)
Very dark, depraved but I'm sure you already knew I would like it... How does the saying go again? Like calls to like. Heh.

As always, putting contrasts between the so-called 'good' and the 'bad' creates such a great effect; I think that's really the spirit--or lack thereof--of the sub... in that they want it but they don't. I must say, I love the irony.
11th-Oct-2007 11:31 pm (UTC)
Hmmmya. This irony. It's what makes things like that exciting, that is, exciting for those who can find it exciting at all. It makes it incredibly hard to understand for other people though. I think I gave up trying to understand anything that includes a want-notwant thing. I just take it the way it is. XD

Eh. *peeks at something else* Mao is distracting me.

Suddenly I'm glad that my mom never directly asks me for my poems... She mentions that she loves reading them, but... if she asked me directly for new poems, umm, what would I say "Ahh, you sure? Umm okay... here are the newest BDSM poems..." ... Yeah sure I'm gonna give her those @-@ hahaha~ [Actually... for an idea! I should, one day... one day... not too soon XD]

Nono, you got the saying wrong. It's "Gleich und Gleich gesellt sich gern" XXD
12th-Oct-2007 03:26 am (UTC)
Irony is the spice of my life XD
I've had some incredibly ironic experiences; they're so much more fun than 'normal' stuff.
What am I even talking about? XD

I'd never want my parents to read my poems.. most are quite depressing or weird or whatever. I don't like happy poems, really.
12th-Oct-2007 03:30 am (UTC)
Ahh most of my poems are depressing, be it of obvious reasons, or because there's this essence of unfullfillable (yes XD) longing in them, but she didn't mind that.


Well of course as a mother, she probably was lying awake for hours thinking about just why her daughter writes such poems XXD Naaah, but she tends to 'like' them... and knowing me... she wouldn't worry anymore. About those kind of poems though, those newer issues welling up ha! I do not think I will give her them to read... so soon XD

Though I tend to insinuate I'm actually into that sort of things .. *cough*
12th-Oct-2007 03:32 am (UTC)
I'm sure you do more than insinuate! XD

You're very vocal about these sorts of things, aren't you? *falls to the ground laughing*
12th-Oct-2007 03:37 am (UTC)
What really... Let me think about that a sexond...


Ummm~ .... Vocal... am I vocal.. *thinks of random Jrocker fantasies* Hmmm *thinks of mao* OH WELL I tend to... ... ... be vocal in many ways I guess *cough* Ummm~ Is it more than insinuating when I write "Mmm Mao you're such a beautiful man, mmmhhh... I want you you know... take me... take me now, please..." in a fan letter to him? Is it? ... hmmm... I wonder.
12th-Oct-2007 03:56 am (UTC)
*cries laughing*

12th-Oct-2007 03:47 am (UTC)
I like it a lot...its very thought-provoking *nods softly and slips out*
12th-Oct-2007 03:57 am (UTC)
I'm glad you like it...

Though... I don't know if one should be glad about such a fact.

Eh? Rescue... I probably need to go to bed. XD
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