Note: In case you haven't read the post I made before this... I was unsure about how to post, because thinking of it AGAIN just makes my innamost dissintegrate. Thinking of it again in such a short period of time, that's what I mean. Sorries for confusions of time and jumping from here to there, it's been my thoughts at the moment. You know how thoughts are. Might be boring here and there. I warned you ~ ... Off I go.
10月19日 あのれ Shite I'm so nervous I can't even write Hiragana... Now that's bad. XD Actually I've been far more obviously nervous yesterday evening. Nervous breakdown. I couldn't manage anything anymore. My hands didn't work properly etc... Today in the morning, mom looked at me and was about to ask... something. She didn't when she saw my face.
"Ok... Dann brauch ich nicht fragen." [Ok... then I don't need to ask *smirk*]
Everything went well with the flight etc... bought a bit of food for later... and went straight to the event. Which was good, because when I arrived at noon there already were.. hundred there?
It's about 16:30 and people are already getting up. Not those immediately around me. I decided to write because... I started getting nervous... again. Breathing deeply. Remembering what I want to say. If I get the chance. But sheesh yes, I AM going to see them. This time is special, ne. I've never seen them before, never felt their presence. I want to... connect.
Security already cleared the way. Oh shite...
There are some cosplayers around... Two or three Reitas ^_^ Really good ones, also the others... umm I really am a little lost right now. I wonder how many things they will sign for each person... because I need to get the Ruki signature... and I should get Reita too... as in... get them for other people. Whoo... and now I started shivering... More people are getting up. (>___<)
I hope I'll be able to say... it. Say something. And I want to connect. People behind us are planning to cheat. Are planning to press themselves under the barrier. That's unfair. Well well they'll get what the will/shall get.
16:45 Security people talking... A night sky is being projected onto the ceiling. I'm freezing though I shouldn't. Wow. This is major. I don't think I quite ever felt this way before... My first concert, yes... but ved Friggas vevstol, I have grown. Barely much more than a child that time. Now this is different. I am grown up, grown upper, I mean... it's been 7 years since then. 称賛。尊敬尊敬称賛してる称賛してる尊敬してる尊敬尊敬称賛尊敬。Remembering... 戒は太陽のような笑顔がある...あるね...太陽のような笑顔あるね〜そう〜すね尊敬尊敬。
We all are nervous wracks. Either quivering or trying to think of something else. Okay I guess I'll do away with this again. I'll try and think of other things. An hour left. They're all being so civilized here... ^___^
And hot Japsguys upstairs staring down. Hee~
So many people standing up there, staring down. They seem to have spare time, huh? They'll get it all without the nervousness. (How boring XD)
And why I didn’t bring presents… (there are like… people with BOXES… ) I didn’t want to bring anything just to give them something. They can’t remember the faces to the presents… I just want to give them myself. Hmmm… It will be okay. ^_^ Because I’m me. Heeh~ I just looked up and there was a shooting star in the ‘sky’ above me. Projected sky. Night sky. Yozora. 夜空 称賛称賛してる愛してる尊敬してる… Okay I’ll definitely pack it up now.