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26th-Jun-2009 09:38 pm

So... this is my

Entry in almost two years of LiveJournaling.


I guess I should say something meaningful

Well I guess, first of all, a huge ThankYou to everyone I got to meet through here and who gradually became important to me in the one or other way.
[I could list a lot of names here but... I might forget one or two, and then feel embarrassed that I did and... un~ Know thyselves! 微笑]
There are some of you that I'm not really in contact with lately [Whom am I really in contact with lately anyway orz] but that doesn't mean that you have vanished from my thoughts, nor my heart.

Thank you everyone.

I'll be properly back on your blogs too, after my exams.
That is, in about a month... *shot*

Well I guess... if anyone insists of a list of names, I'll sit down and do it...
It's not like I don't feel particularly thanking some of you explicitly for things... Maybe I'll do it after all orz

Well, I just checked my tag history. I know I've done it before, sort of surprised at the outcome... yet, then not really surprised at all. *laughs*

The tag I used the most is unmatched [or so] blog, with 490 uses...
Number two is, uh, well... mao. I uh. Don't know whether that should be surprising, 209 uses.
Next is fun with 129 uses. That's where the memes and quizzes show effect *laughs* but

209, huh? Right. And I haven't really been using that tag often lately, ne... Ehrm. x3

I won't go into details on this... I uh... oughtn't, I guess.

So, enough about tagging history...

A bit about the lately-me *laughs*

☆ Things (or so) Japanese ☆

I had to realize again that I've got a sort of Japanese-Fetish. I mean... I'm just sort of terribly weak when it comes to... things Japanese. No, wait. Not things. People.... じゃない…GUYS Japanese. Yeah. (照)

Yesterday, between one course and the next, Irene and I sat down in the institute's canteen, together with two other girls from Japanese Studies [I call that for Japanology just in case anyone wonders that I suddenly use a different word. I won't anymore hereafter 8D].
After a while, a couple of kouhais came to join us. Amongst them, two 'fresh' Japanese♂ students. Uhh... (//∇///)

I again had some fun analyzing myself. It's not like they were mind-blowing pretty or anything. They just were... not unattractive. *laughs* So I sat there opposite them (one whose face I could only see at occasions due to a huge mane of... black... hair... (ハアト)) and just couldn't stop myself from smirking and scrutinizing them. Going like "mehehehehe" on the inside... Ahahahahaha... Seriously... I'm like *eyes sparrrrkling* with some part of me surely going like 'Uhhhh Prrrreeeyyyy' or something ... even if it's just for the eyes *laughs*
Yeah I do realize that once in the 'right' districts in Japan I might just stand still at some street corner and just look and never move \8'D/


Occasionally -possibly- going like

... or even...

lmao.../jkjk orso笑

I just feel so good with Japanese -friendlywithniceaura- guys close. *nodnod* So much at ease, don't even know why. So much so I can forget everything else around me 8'D Had this blissful smile playing around my lips all the while we sat together with them. [Uh and... jadako, *hums name* it's a different 'blissful smile' than the one from yesterday 8D I've got... several... This was the one that might have had a hint of drool clinging to one corner of my mouth *SHOT*] Talking about Japanese... ↓

☆ *insert fitting word* ☆
(OBS emotional~)

I still keep thinking back to the concert last week. You know, the day after, I just felt... I guess the way I have been wanting to feel for a long time. Free. At ease. Parts of me that haven't been feeling that way finally were able to feel so again. I think they touched down where, more than a year ago, others had touched down, stirred everything up, threw me, pulling my insides out and stuffing my outsides inside, turning everything upside down and laying myself open in ways that were devastating at times. I don't know whether it will happen again to that extent, maybe. It's just that I never really came back down... or 'up' rather, after that. So frail. I haven't been feeling that sort of frailty for a while now, and that live... I guess it healed much more, much profounder and longer lasting than anything else that happened between my first downfall.

The day after the concert, the way I felt I could only put into words like (Insert worldshaking atmoshpere here.) "I felt like yesterday... happened."

Just yesterday some things came back to my mind.

The way 京 was so different from the other times I've seen them. He even... almost seemed human. Almost. Still otherworldly, yet from a much more friendly sphere than the ones I know from before. Not so much the demon, but more the keeper. Whenever he happened to look at me, I did not feel as if a creature from the darkest pits of somewhere-close-to-Hel was burning its fiery eyes right through my soul, no, far from it. In fact, I felt safe. There was no bit of fear. Instead, this overwhelming gratefulness and surrender.

Speaking about Diru.


That's about what I looked like before the live

before diru 2009 sm



Have I mentioned that I love collars? Or *purr* leashes to keep the soft, cozy pet whe-*shot*

Taken in Rosie's bedroom. Bigger mirrors, にゃー *laughs*

Well, and this was after.

About no make-up left whatsover... Or well. The pitiful rest. *laughs*
[And wet eyes...]

Mawww~ There are a couple more pics lying around that I ~might~ have posted some day, but well *laughs*
That's enough for now~


Mmrrrrreow? w にゃ〜

Oh well, right, pictures.
I was talking about babykittens in my last post. Well, I tried to catch some pictures of her today but... that Wooshl is just too quick *laughs* ... and the batteries of my camera just too weak... but I got at least two pictures that ... well.

Are just too adorable to not post.

She's nine weeks old... isn't she just... ungh~

Well, bigger pics next time~

26th-Jun-2009 08:40 pm (UTC)
Congrats on 999 posts! :D
26th-Jun-2009 09:09 pm (UTC)
Tha~nk you :3333
*throws SagaxShoushaped confetti*

And as unexpectedly I am still awake and realized I still wanted to add something

Thanks, my very-first-LJ-仲間-ever. \(^ω^)ノにゃ〜

Edited at 2009-06-26 09:53 pm (UTC)
26th-Jun-2009 11:22 pm (UTC)
Here's to many more late nights and long, detailled posts about this-n-that!

(^ o^)♥
27th-Jun-2009 04:57 am (UTC)

I really wonder how I ever made it to have that many in that period of time but... Guess it will remain a mystery. Or... Let's call it マオ \8D/
26th-Jun-2009 09:17 pm (UTC)
Woot, compliments for all these posts! o:
Anyway, you're very cute~ and so is your kitten. ;_; -squishes delicately- ♥
26th-Jun-2009 09:55 pm (UTC)
*giggle* Thank you~
And thank you :\\3 ←not supposed to be reirei xD
Aw, Lucy's not my kittey... it's my flatmate's. And I'm scarcely allowed to do anything with her until she's gotten used to my flatmate 8D Until then I'll sneak-preview pictures of her xDDD
27th-Jun-2009 12:53 am (UTC)
-evil giggle- Yeah, steal pretty pictures and show us! ** -bribes to teh contraband-
27th-Jun-2009 04:51 am (UTC)
*laughs* Alright alright... I'll do my best >D
26th-Jun-2009 09:39 pm (UTC)
I can only hope for next 1000 post:D
ディルのライブ... I don't have words to express how I felt right after or even how I'm feeling right now... *sigh*
26th-Jun-2009 09:52 pm (UTC)
Mmmmmh ^3^
I guess it will be... interesting the least to see what happens during the next 999 posts. *smiles* After all... it's gonna be years... 微笑

Hnn, and that I guess, is more positive than negative~ It better be <3
... I hope you'll find words soon though 笑
28th-Jun-2009 03:48 pm (UTC)

Gosh honey, you're so fucking damned gorgeous beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me loves the pics of u so very much, reminds me of coz of youuu ... at the occasion of a certain live ...

Hehehe, and that white/red fluffy hairball - doesn#t she remind you of Sherry??
btw, what's her name?? And is she really a SHE????
28th-Jun-2009 04:18 pm (UTC)
Lol... I'm uh... just having my cameras pretend me to be that way sometimes xP

Thank you though <3

Hmmm, a bit she does. Her colour anyway. Her name's Lucy, and so far she's very female. Well, we'll find out 8D
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30th-Jun-2009 09:46 pm (UTC)
Heehee x3
Thank you <3

... Thank you again *laughs*

How are you doing nowadays?
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11th-Jul-2009 08:16 pm (UTC)
lmao... I was like "huh? Comment? On what? oO" www

That sounds grea~t w
Yeah I know... well it's about 3 weeks for me... or ... 2.5 or so uh... ZP *ARGH*
So for me it's not really "only 3 more to go before vacations 8D" but more "only 3 more weeks time to study for my exam D8" orz
That aside, I'm fine... I guess... maybe? XD Uh I think so 8D~ (混乱)
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